Nostalgia and Amnesia

by Benjie Loveless

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1.
02:14
There is a danger of an imminent collapse See it for yourself our foundation is cracked The evidence mounts in stacks and stacks but we are soon to forget it Busy Building our house of traps while we set off every one. Everything we have has fallen in our laps We've got the luck of the rabbit but we never earned nothing Don't be shocked, Don't be amazed We should of seen it coming from a mile away Don't be shocked, don't be amazed You knew we had it coming from a mile away Gather all our dreams and pack them like a rat Into the warmest hole we can afford Busy building this house of wax and I can't trust your warm hand no more There is a danger of an imminent collapse See it for yourself our foundation is cracked The evidence mounts in stacks and stacks but it is too much to bare and it's too much to change. Don't be shocked, Don't be amazed We should of seen it coming from a mile away Don't be shocked, don't be amazed You knew we had it coming from a decade away
2.
Maybe the reasons are equivalent to action too many achievements and no satisfaction Wouldn't be treason if i were to change my dreams If I were to change my scenes and associations I see the reason is equivalent to action too many bereavements and time spent in traction It would be treason if i weren't to ditch this scene If I weren't to treat my dreams as obligations. Maybe the reasons are equivalent to action Too many achievements and no satisfaction It would be treason if i didn't change my dreams If i weren't to change my scenes and associations Now is the season of my holy erection No more genuflecting to these flaccid dejections It would be treason If i weren't to ditch this scene If i didn't treat my dreams as obligations.
3.
Pushing shoving and falling, hammers running through my veins I don't want no bargain but i want to know what i paid for I can hear you calling but there ain't no phone ringing nowhere If you find me crawling will you let me in again Well worth the pain Slipping tripping and stalling, bending on broken knees I'm so sick of this jargon, can't we say what we really mean Slip you fingers in my fingers, stop this pointing and screaming Slip your fingers in my fingers and walk away with me.
4.
Oh Judith the truth is you're as crazy as me I see the mirror in your eyes and I want to run away I see the mirror in your eye and I cry, how much I love you I see the mirror in your eyes and I know I should leave Oh Judith the truth is I loved you the best Oh Judith the proof is I was blind to see How I must have tormented the rest and how easy it is to invest In another scar hearted black hole like me Oh Judith the truth is leaving you is leaving myself I see the mirror in my eyes and the promise fades away I see the mirror in my eyes and I cry how close we came I see the mirror in my eyes and there's no one staring back.
5.
Fear of man and fear and fear of death Bringing up the rear with the fear of the species Fear of failure and fear of success Bringing up the rear with the fear of decision Well I'm afraid to stay in motion, afraid to remain at rest Bringing up the rear with the fear that it will always be this way Fear of the worst that the best has to offer yet Bringing up the rear with the fear of superiors Fear of the flag and our country tis' of thee Bringing up the rear with the fear of the nation Fear of all they hear and fear of all they see Bringing up the rear with the fear of surveillance Fear of true believers and what they believe me to be Bring up the rear with the fear of reprimands I'm afraid of my natural ways and If i keep them secret will it keep me safe I'm afraid of the national state and if i keep their secrets will they keep me safe. Fear of the hateful and their easy loyalties Bringing up the rear with the fear of the stupid Fear of the peaceful on their surrendering knees Bringing up the rear with the fear of pacifists Fear of the needful and their survival instincts Bringing up the rear with the fear of the poor. Fear of the greedful as they drink us to the brink Bringing up the rear with the fear of the rich Fear of the creedful and the slogans they think that they think Bringing up the rear with the fear of the faithful I'm afraid of my natural ways and If i keep them secret will it keep me safe I'm afraid of the national state and if i keep their secrets will they keep me safe. I'm afraid of my natural ways and If i keep them secret will it keep me safe I'm afraid of the national state and if i keep their secrets will they keep me safe. I'm afraid of my natural ways and If i keep them secret will it keep me safe I'm afraid of the national state and if i keep their secrets will they keep me safe.
6.
Rescue is on the way, you cried. Oh no you didn't go and call the rangers Why do you have it stuck in your skull... That when you see me down, you think I'm in danger Just you wait and see I'll be rising from the dead like i was born in a manger Weighed down by this harrowing hell If you close that lid, you'll hear me ringing the bell of the Second coming, Second coming The second coming is coming for you Second Coming, just play dumb and The Second coming is gonna see us through. Untrue. Lies Lies Lies The scales of delusion have fallen from my eyes Call it mania, euphoria or epiphany Call it what you will but you ain't seen the last of me How could you ever understand ? I have seen the light like no other man..in this Second coming, best start running The second coming is coming for you Second Coming, just play dumb and The Second coming is gonna see us through. Second coming, best start running The second coming is coming for you Second Coming, just play dumb and The Second coming is gonna run it through.
7.
02:53
Subsidence opens and guides us. The net it widens and tightens I thought I was struck by lightning. It burns like anthracite does You cling to me like static. I can't see in your attic What are you hiding in there ? Is that my scalp or a lock of your hair ? To hell with you and this necrophilia To hell with you , this nostalgia and amnesia To hell with you , Back to hell with you To hell with you and the man who let you in here. Stay here and dream where you are, the future is chaste and stillborn The future is past and neutered. The future cannot last. Collusion of the pleasured flesh. Collision of the mending mesh Tare tears to rags. Tear it all to shreds. To hell with you and this necrophilia To hell with you , Nostalgia and amnesia To hell with you , Back to hell with you To hell with you and the man who let you in here.
8.
Its gonna beat you black, beat you blue Until love renews and your colors run true It will leave you hungry, everyday is make do Until love renews and you've had your fill on feast day All this take it or leave it, whats up your sleeve it Its all a ruse and then love renews Misconstrued. Diametrically opposed points of view Until Love renews and you need no one to perceive it Refute and abrogate. Trial by peer review Until Love renews and no one needs to believe it Relinquish and bequeath. Commit and remit with no breakthrough Until love renews and no one needs to receive it. When love renews and its just for you When Love renews and you do with it what you choose.

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My new record. Nostalgia and Amnesia.

It is an intimate record. No synthetic ethereal atmospherics or reverb added to fill voids. For the most part it is there in the room with you.

It is a guitar record. Though you will hear sounds alluding to and playing the role of horns, strings and organs, synth etc., every sound was made with good ol' acoustic guitar, electric guitar, banjo, bass and drums. Tons of riffs.

Its a rock and roll record. Intro, outro, Part A, Part B, a bridge and a solo/ instrumental break here and there but for the most part it gets to the point and is indulgent only in texture and color..not in structural experiment. You can tap your foot and drum on your steering wheel, I have danced to it. Yes the notes are chords are bobbing and weaving but you could probably play along with only a few notes if you so desired.

It is an american record. Many little nods to my more euro heroes such as Brian Eno etc but at its core you will hear the soul/country/hilllbilly/blues/jazz influences without the generic Retro production mimicry that is so popular of late.

Its a fun, sometimes humorous and emotional record with little overt irony, goofiness or melodrama. Its the real thing. You should listen to it, start to finish, very loudly.

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released November 23, 2015

Written, arranged, performed, engineered, mixed and mastered, cover art by Benjie Loveless:
Vocals, electric guitars, effected guitars, acoustic guitar, Bass guitar, six string banjo, drums
Cover models: Sarah Jacklin, Craig Colletta

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Benjie Loveless Baltimore, Maryland

Normal music for weird people. Salty New Wave Americana singer songwriter with a introspective black humor, a moral nihilism and a mostly harmless misanthropic spirituality. Born and Bred in Baltimore , Maryland.

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